The Pain of Writing

The title I came up with for this post is, well, I don’t know what it is. I was inspired by this image:

I haven’t posted in a while. Is it writer’s block? That would be a good excuse for me. Is it laziness? Another good excuse for me. Perhaps it’s a bit of rebelliousness or low self esteem, for me.

Whatever it is or has been…. so be it. I have no excuse for not posting. None. Zero. Zip.

I guess these words are me, sitting at my keyboard bleeding. A rather small cut or scrape this time but definitely blood.

And there you have it. I have now cleaned the wound of silence and bandaged it up until the next post when I will, hopefully, bleed out a little more.

Have a great day! Enjoy!

Cate B

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When You Brood More Than You Write

I love this post written by, not only a great writer, but my daughter-in-law. A timely post for me. If you are writing a book or an article you may need to read this, all the way through – very encouraging. Cate B

As writers we may find ourselves in this place…… please read the full article written not only by a great writer, but my daughter-in-law. She nailed exactly what I am facing daily…….Brooding is uncomfortable. Embarrassing. It’s difficult to see the point, and while I wonder what the point could be, I brood some more.

Source: When You Brood More Than You Write

Writing Again, Writing Still

It’s been almost a year since I last posted on the topic of writing .  My goals, etc.  The book I started and started again and thought I finished……..almost.

Sigh.  I cannot compare myself to others.  That is unwise – even the bible tells us that.

But I do it anyway until I catch myself.  So many of my peers write on their blog often.  Sometimes several times a day.  Me? Oh, perhaps once a week or two.  Good grief.  I guess there are no tight rules on this but I may be forgotten if I don’t write something!

I decided to wrap up a booklet I wanted to  publish.  Good time to do it – now.  So I progressed rapidly this week.  Even asked two authors I know to write an endorsement for the front.  Sigh, again.  After I sent the “manuscript” out to a friend to read first, I realized that the requirements of the publisher was to have at least fifty pages.  WHAT?!?!?!  I have just over half that.

Time for fetal position.  I dread going back in and adding to what I thought was alright.  Ugh.  Double ugh.

I do believe I can write.  But why such dread?  Why do I feel defeated before I even start?  I don’t normally write such gut revealing words on here – but this is how I feel today.

I know me enough to know that I will pick myself up and dust myself off and face this project.  Sooner, I hope, rather than later.

I am open for advice and encouragement – but not criticism.  I do not believe that criticizing artistic abilities is a thing.  We are all individuals with individual tastes.

Thank you for letting me spill to you……

😀 Cate B

My Goals – Score!

I was faced, recently, with the question: What are my goals for my blogging adventure?  Ugh.  Goals, to me, belong in soccer or football.  I’m just kidding, but, making a list of goals has always been difficult for me.  Let me tell you why.

I am the type of person who runs from goals, most of the time, simply because I’m afraid I won’t make them.  Yup, it’s that simple.  I give myself a deadline or a list of things I want to accomplish and I do the opposite.  And that is due to fear.  The old fear of failure.  So I guess that when I make those goals I just jump right past them and into the finish line……. of failure.

This day, February 2nd, 2015, I will tell you some of my blogging goals and then they will be out there in the wild blue web-os-sphere for all to see.

Here goes:

  • I want to be heard.  I want to say such profound words that ears will open and hearts will change
  • I want to increase traffic to my blog
  • I want to increase the like button activity and more nice comments (nice ones, please)
  • I want more like-minded blogging friends and buddies and followers
  • I want to make money blogging 
  • I want another trip to Hawaii

That sounds awful to me.  Sounds selfish but it is what I want.

Dear readers, there you have it.  My goals and I hope you help me achieve them or whittle the list down or even change it some to be more realistic.  In other words, give me your kind advice.  I am a creative person and take criticism seriously and will probably cry.  😉  And I’m a grandmother………

Thank you for the listen.                     images8

Enjoy!

cate b

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It’s Time To Get Busy

I checked back into my past posts looking for this one: I’m Writing a Book.  Turns out I wrote it and posted it in 2010.  Say what?  Where does the time go?

I had every intention of publishing by now, but I also have intentions of procrastination.  Yup, I do.

I see so many writers whip out books and publish them quickly.  Look, I’m not opposed to publishing or writing many books.  However, seeing so many do the self publishing caused me to step back and look at my motives.  For me, I tend to want to be noticed.  To “be somebody”.  So, rather than join the crowd of self publishers, I tend to weigh it out way too long.  In some ways that is bad because it gives me a lot of time to talk myself out of it.  On the other hand, it gives me more time to reevaluate my motives and intentions and evaluate the subject of my book.

That being said, I almost ditched the whole project.  The intention of the book was a topic that is in abundance out there in the reading world.  So who am I to add to a plethora of a certain subject?

The Beauty of Waiting……. I had an epiphany the other day.  I knew, without a doubt, I needed to change the direction of my book. I didn’t just want to dump into print my tragic story.  It was and is tragic in some ways.  But I find that when people know of our tragedy it hinders them knowing the real us or me.  They already form a picture of our family based on what we had to go through.  Some even take it on as their own grief and I, the griever, resent that.  It’s mine, not yours.

So, I am working now on changing our life-changing-experience to one of hope and love.  That way the reader can see how one person (or one family) made it through and continues on.  How life’s disappointments, however big or small, can change us and cause us to be a deeper soul.  A regular human being gleaning all they can out of life’s journey.

I may sound a bit mysterious.  I do that on purpose because I want you to buy the book.  Of course I do.

So stay tuned for the release of Butterfly Tattoo.

I am wishing you all well on your writing journeys, whether it be your blog, your articles or your books.  We all have a story to tell.

Enjoy!

cate b

 

 

I’m Writing a Book

I know, I know. Some of you after reading my blog may think, why would SHE write a book. LOL
Because I’m suppose to. I even wrote chapter 1 today. So, those of you who hang out with Jesus please say a prayer for me because I do believe it is Him who (whom?) told me to write this book. It will be about loss and mostly HOPE.
It feels good and it feels right.
I was putting off starting this book until today when I left a meeting that exudes in Hope and a gal I somewhat know handed me a book that she wrote and self- published. As she placed it into my hands I heard, Here – she did it – so can you!
Truly an inspiration from God.
So, today begins the journey – the 13th of September, 2010.
Hope journey.